The curious case of life

I drove home last night with a lump in my throat the size of a golf ball.  I stared through the windscreen and steered vacantly all the way.

The sun was setting as I arrived home.  I stared out the window and watched the bats circle and dart about in the darkening sky.

To have the strength to change your life.  The words keep coming back to me.

As a father who is growing physically younger with each year, Benjamin Button wants his newborn daughter to live her life to the fullest, to meet people who don’t always agree with her and to love and be free.

He talks of having the strength to change when your life isn’t going to plan, and in some cases to walk away and change direction.

It was that point in the movie that began choking me up.  I thought of my dear little sons and what I’ve done to be honest with myself.  I couldn’t be a parent without being honest about who I am, even though I endure days and nights without my boys.

A moment of celluloid reached in and gently squeezed my heart and it ached a little for the rest of the night.

My mother tells me to live for today, because that’s all you’ve got John.  Like the mayfly that has but a single day to grow, to fly above the grass, lay eggs and dance with her mates until nightfall -” she is happy as she lived a life as full as she could.

I looked out of the lounge room window. The sky is a deep violet and black velvet and the ink-coloured cloud wisps swirl and envelop the waxing moon.

I’m curious -” where will my tomorrow take me?