What is it we need?

It’s evident post-trip that I have been living in a very busy and at times narcissistic world.

In retrospect, I feel like I was interacting with those I love and myself with a veil of disguised interest and serenity even when I prided myself in thinking I acted the opposite. Was I really here before I flew around the world?

Since coming home, calmness and absolute clarity have pervaded every aspect of my life. It’s clear to me and to those around me. Mountains insurmountable before feel like small mounds of dirt. Bubbling streams previously now appear as quiet powerful rivers with unfathomable depths.

I wasn’t the only one in my life, but I certainly didn’t have much room after my mini men squeezed in. Today I am growing room to move with my boys, as well as to offer loved ones and others space.

In leaving room for considering  other people I have exponentially grown capacity without realising that to have room, you need to offer it first. And I’m not talking real estate here. It’s the grace in giving people time to be heard, loved or held.

My time away made me evaluate what is going on around me. I wasn’t a single 20-year-old touring. I am a single dad in his 30s. Some days I was in awe of grandiose spectacles, on other days I wondered what all the fuss was about.

Cumulatively I was reminded of what meant the most back home and, critically, what it means to be me.

Previously I’ve wondered what it is we all need, and today is no different, but I’m more at peace discovering it’s grace that we need. There’s so much that branches off genuine goodwill. From it comes everything that is making more of a difference in my world, every day.

My life was filled with light before I left and it has only become brighter. To find grace again has made me believe that nothing is impossible and every day is a new chance.